Roobootics: The Blog

I see Her

She lives in my reflection

Shrouded in shadows, so gaunt, so grim

I hear Her

She whispers to me, a soft hiss

That I am nothing, and I deserve nothing

And I don’t want to listen

So She screams, a piercing screech 

I am nothing, I deserve nothing

I feel Her

Cold and clammy

Slithering around my body, squeezing me blue

A hug so tight, I no longer wish to breathe

I taste Her

Sweet, icy happiness trickles down my throat

Turning my lips numb and my head frozen

And as quickly as She comes

She is gone

I see Him 

He bathes my mind with His mane of light

Vanishing everything else, so bright, so blinding

I hear Him

He purrs in my ear

That I am everything, and I am owed everything

And I won’t let him make a fool of me

So He roars, rumbling the Earth

I am everything, God herself should bow to me

I feel him

Restless, nocturnal, predatory

Sinking His teeth into the back of my neck

For when He holds me I need neither sleep nor sustenance

I taste Him

Bitter, lighting a fire down my throat

And I am numb, yet so sensitive

And I feel everything, and nothing

The everything that makes a mess

And the nothing that is apathy

He always leaves a mess

That I have to clean

And the shame

Oh, the shame

She’s back.